“this is how i fail”


highlighting shadowing
until i can get to my satisfaction: the SEMIOTICS
from original (fig-1) to bold shadows highlights (fig-2) then finally (fig-3 & 4) my perception of me; i decide: I AM this!
fundamentally, i am the DESIRE to be
i move on shadows and highlights
a temporal being
my CONSCIOUSNESS flowers the desire
but there’s no first single desire of my being, then a thousand particular feelings
no, REALITY is not my nature.
my desire to exist, manifests myself
through jealousy envy greed lust pride…
my consciousness, instinctively a narcissist
i me and myself… my priori induction
family friends people are but my seconds
my collective consciousness isn’t me
i am the totality of my desires: to be GOD… this is how i fail!!!
ade caparas manilah
wednesday 9:28pm 03 january 2018
sydney nsw australia